Patience

There are the times in life when I feel very low, I see negativity everywhere. What should one do in such situation.  There are different times when you have options and there are times when you have nothing. One cry, screams and there is none who listens you.  There is only one thing your loneliness.  Many people comes they gives you suggestion but nothing works, they say it is very small problem don’t worry and they try to talk you but you love to be alone.  Actually none can understand one’s problem from what you are going through and no problem in this world is a small problem,  problem is never big or small that is there is one word problem it can not be measured this can only be felt  by the person who is facing it.  This is the phase when you are confused and you do not have control over the things but you don’t stop trying obviously you can not stop acting you try every damn thing to change your time but nothing works and these failures decrease your morale, discourage you world seems to end.  During this phase whatever decision you take is always wrong this is what I have learnt. Because it is the emotional state of your mind and any decision which you take emotionally is always wrong.  The practice which helps in this situation is sitting quite.  When you take decision in such situation you feel this the right thing but I would say in this situation one should not take any decision no matter how good it seems even if it seems the best decision of your life do not take it.  This thing we do not realize at that time, at that time we just want to run away but running away is not the solution of any problem.  If it is not your time you have to face it till it ends.  And believe me it ends.  Bad time gives you pain, it gives you tears actually it tests your patience.  There is one only one friend of yours during your hard time which is illusion.  Be in illusion that toughest time is directly proportional to happiest time only than you will be able to face it.  As much you discuss it with other it becomes bigger.  Always respect such time it makes you strong, it make you mature it keeps you down to earth.  Whenever in life you feel whatever you have gotten is not what you want and if you realize you are hurting someone remember this time, if you remember it you will become possessive for what you have.  Try to recall those night which you have spent alone when you tried to sleep you were not able to, when to try to cry you didn’t get place, try to remember those days when you went to washroom because you want to cry and you are not able to do anything.  Try to remember that time when you want have someone s shoulder not to share your problem just to rest your head on it and keep silence, just to feel yes there is someone who can under stand my silence but but there was no one.