Bewilderment

How does it feel when you have two choice one is your present and another is your future.  What should one select out of two.  Present will give the happiness for few moments and another will secure your future. When you know if you select present it will cherish your couple of weeks and once this period is over the problem will persist the same.  And the another option when you know if I choose the future today I have to face some weird eyes everyone will shout on you people will make you feel as you have committed sin and once you overcome all these looks and reaction future will not be best but it will be batter than now .  Most of the people will go for the second option and what if first one was your dream and you have to choose between your dream and future what option you would go for???  Dream will give you happiness for few days and future might give you happiness for longer period of time.  Confuse…………What I will choose is future, I just need to have faith in me if I have attitude I will bring the time back and will create the situation so that I can fulfill my dream in my way and on my condition.  There is one more myth opportunities never come again and again and both are the opportunity both are good, I just need to realize which is batter.  If I keep aside my emotions, definitely I will choose one which will give me long term benefit.  Concept applies same everywhere.   After all you want peace of mind at least for few moments.  It is difficult to pass the time when you know it going to be hell after this but you can pass the toughest time when you know after this it will be batter

Patience

There are the times in life when I feel very low, I see negativity everywhere. What should one do in such situation.  There are different times when you have options and there are times when you have nothing. One cry, screams and there is none who listens you.  There is only one thing your loneliness.  Many people comes they gives you suggestion but nothing works, they say it is very small problem don’t worry and they try to talk you but you love to be alone.  Actually none can understand one’s problem from what you are going through and no problem in this world is a small problem,  problem is never big or small that is there is one word problem it can not be measured this can only be felt  by the person who is facing it.  This is the phase when you are confused and you do not have control over the things but you don’t stop trying obviously you can not stop acting you try every damn thing to change your time but nothing works and these failures decrease your morale, discourage you world seems to end.  During this phase whatever decision you take is always wrong this is what I have learnt. Because it is the emotional state of your mind and any decision which you take emotionally is always wrong.  The practice which helps in this situation is sitting quite.  When you take decision in such situation you feel this the right thing but I would say in this situation one should not take any decision no matter how good it seems even if it seems the best decision of your life do not take it.  This thing we do not realize at that time, at that time we just want to run away but running away is not the solution of any problem.  If it is not your time you have to face it till it ends.  And believe me it ends.  Bad time gives you pain, it gives you tears actually it tests your patience.  There is one only one friend of yours during your hard time which is illusion.  Be in illusion that toughest time is directly proportional to happiest time only than you will be able to face it.  As much you discuss it with other it becomes bigger.  Always respect such time it makes you strong, it make you mature it keeps you down to earth.  Whenever in life you feel whatever you have gotten is not what you want and if you realize you are hurting someone remember this time, if you remember it you will become possessive for what you have.  Try to recall those night which you have spent alone when you tried to sleep you were not able to, when to try to cry you didn’t get place, try to remember those days when you went to washroom because you want to cry and you are not able to do anything.  Try to remember that time when you want have someone s shoulder not to share your problem just to rest your head on it and keep silence, just to feel yes there is someone who can under stand my silence but but there was no one.

Desire

We always strive to chase our dream. Dream which are endless. Wishes.. for what we always ask god to fulfill and promise to him this will be the last…if it could be last there will be no word in this world as Wishes. It is just like giving a lollipop to god so that he listen us.  I always wanted to be a doctor when time came my interest moved toward computer when time came to choose computer I moved towards commerce. These are desires infinity desires when we do not have something we die to get that and when it comes to life either we got afraid or we have lesser importance for that in life most of the time we started looking towards something called batter than this and it becomes another desire.  Again we are hungry.  There is nothing wrong its human nature I want more, more and more….actually chasing a thing which is not yours is the motive of ones life and if you get it you realize it is not that what I wanted and the race starts again…..It gives a direction , a motive to live, a joy to get it which we do not realize.  This joy is that feeling which we imagine what if I could have it, this imaginary  feeling is more beautiful and happening than the feeling comes after getting it.  So keep dreaming………….